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An Overflow of the Heart

Luke 6:45
For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks

There is much change in my life right now and I feel I have an overflow of words stored up in me. I am not much of a talker and my attempts at keeping a journal have not been successful. So, a blog is born, as I am sure many have been before it. Just a desire to get out what I am not sure I can express to the people around me.

I will start by saying that I love God. Truly and deeply. My life has been filled with very steep hills and very deep valleys. But I overcome. My life is one with many many blessings. I began a walk with God 11 years ago. I owe much of my life to an amazing church. A church that I have decided to leave.

It isn't easy to make that decision and I didn't do it lightly. It has been difficult for the people around me. I have even heard the word devastating. I was deeply involved. Involved to the point that I had a hard time separating God and the church.

Suddenly it hit me. God wants me to be at peace. I had not known peace in my heart for a long time. But I can't say why I haven't had peace. So, I go in search of it. In 3 months my world has changed. My beliefs have changed. Things that I have studied, researched, and explored to no end suddenly are called into question. And my belief and faith in God feels stronger than ever because of it.

Galatians 5:22
But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

I go in search of the faith to dream. I want to dream big. I know the things God is capable of is bigger than anything I can think up. I search for the faith to dream the dreams that are in God's plans, not just my own.

I never want to look back at my life and realize that I should have made changes a long time ago. I only have one chance at this life. I want to take it by the reigns and be inspired.


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