The Faith to Dream

My entire life has been plagued by a difficult dilemma. I am an introvert who struggles to be alone. I get easily overwhelmed with a crowd and struggle to get along in groups. I have a hard time reaching out to people. I don't get attached easily to others. On the other hand, I don't really like to be alone. I love to be around people. I feel lonely easily. Sometimes I can be surrounded by people and feel lonely. Hebrews 3:13 But encourage one another daily, as long is it is called "Today," so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness. Sometimes when I am around people I don't feel encouraged by them. I read the scripture above and know that it is true. I am constantly fighting against a hardened heart. My heart was hardened at a young age. Opening myself up, being vulnerable, loving others. That is so incredibly hard for me. But if I can't figure it out I am not going to know the joy that God has in store for me. John 13:34 ...

Luke 6:45 For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks There is much change in my life right now and I feel I have an overflow of words stored up in me. I am not much of a talker and my attempts at keeping a journal have not been successful. So, a blog is born, as I am sure many have been before it. Just a desire to get out what I am not sure I can express to the people around me. I will start by saying that I love God. Truly and deeply. My life has been filled with very steep hills and very deep valleys. But I overcome. My life is one with many many blessings. I began a walk with God 11 years ago. I owe much of my life to an amazing church. A church that I have decided to leave. It isn't easy to make that decision and I didn't do it lightly. It has been difficult for the people around me. I have even heard the word devastating. I was deeply involved. Involved to the point that I had a hard time separating God and the church. Suddenly it hit me. God wants me...